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I am back!
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Oh my goodness, I have been gone a while. April 21, 2017 was my last journal entry. Wow..... so much in my life has changed just shy of two years. Oh where to begin........ I suppose I'll start with the good first. So my baby boy is now 3! Woo!!! I have moved to a new job as of September of 2018 and within barely two months I was promoted to a site leader position. I love my new job, and I occasionally pick up shifts at the nursing home. I am in a wonderful Discord group called FLUX, and I love the friends I have made there. A few of them have really helped me through some rough times..... Oh and my twin sister is expecting twins of her own!! They will be here in May.
So I suppose on to the bad stuff. Honestly it's just one bad thing that has led to many other things. My husband of 3 years/whom I have been with for 9 years and I have separated. Not sure if I have said this before, which I probably haven't, he was my first everything. Kiss, boyfriend, lover, had my child with him. But as of the beginning of this year that is no more. At first it was very civil, I got from the separation that we just don't work well anymore after so many years. It was hard that first week. I cried many nights. I hoped that maybe it could be fixed and we would get back together. But not even a week after we split he told me he slept with someone else. At that time I didn't want to hear anything else. I had given my all to this guy, supported him for so many years and through all of his ideas. I told him I didn't want him there anymore. He asked if this relationship could be fixed. I told him no. I can't do it. So he left that night saying that he was going to fix the other relationship. I was furious. I allowed him to stay at the house after we first separated so he could save money and get a place of his own and this happens. He came back the next day to get clothes and tell me that he had just wanted to let me know. That he is not a cheater. I asked when. He replied the night he left........ I asked how that wasn't cheating. How that was not wrong in his eyes. To leave someone he had been with for 9 years and instantly sleep with someone else. He saw no wrong. I told him for that to happen he must have thought about it long before we split. He told me that's not how it is. So he left.
Fast forward to now. He is living with the girl and her BOYFRIEND/FIANCEE. He rarely comes to see our son and take him anywhere. OH! And he sold his 4 seater mustang for a motorcycle..... We have a 3 year old. How is he ever supposed to pick him up? Many a night have I had to console my child because he wanted his daddy. I've tried being civil, but it is not working. As soon as I can manage down time from work I will be getting a lawyer and filing for divorce. This relationship has just left a sour taste in my mouth.
I am sorry for ranting, but I am pretty sure no one looks at my journals anyway. I just needed somewhere to put my thoughts. I did not mean for this much of the journal to be filled with that.
But hopefully I am back and can start drawing again and posting.
So I suppose on to the bad stuff. Honestly it's just one bad thing that has led to many other things. My husband of 3 years/whom I have been with for 9 years and I have separated. Not sure if I have said this before, which I probably haven't, he was my first everything. Kiss, boyfriend, lover, had my child with him. But as of the beginning of this year that is no more. At first it was very civil, I got from the separation that we just don't work well anymore after so many years. It was hard that first week. I cried many nights. I hoped that maybe it could be fixed and we would get back together. But not even a week after we split he told me he slept with someone else. At that time I didn't want to hear anything else. I had given my all to this guy, supported him for so many years and through all of his ideas. I told him I didn't want him there anymore. He asked if this relationship could be fixed. I told him no. I can't do it. So he left that night saying that he was going to fix the other relationship. I was furious. I allowed him to stay at the house after we first separated so he could save money and get a place of his own and this happens. He came back the next day to get clothes and tell me that he had just wanted to let me know. That he is not a cheater. I asked when. He replied the night he left........ I asked how that wasn't cheating. How that was not wrong in his eyes. To leave someone he had been with for 9 years and instantly sleep with someone else. He saw no wrong. I told him for that to happen he must have thought about it long before we split. He told me that's not how it is. So he left.
Fast forward to now. He is living with the girl and her BOYFRIEND/FIANCEE. He rarely comes to see our son and take him anywhere. OH! And he sold his 4 seater mustang for a motorcycle..... We have a 3 year old. How is he ever supposed to pick him up? Many a night have I had to console my child because he wanted his daddy. I've tried being civil, but it is not working. As soon as I can manage down time from work I will be getting a lawyer and filing for divorce. This relationship has just left a sour taste in my mouth.
I am sorry for ranting, but I am pretty sure no one looks at my journals anyway. I just needed somewhere to put my thoughts. I did not mean for this much of the journal to be filled with that.
But hopefully I am back and can start drawing again and posting.
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Hisoka the Magician
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Is my newfound love! How I never read hunter x hunter before this last couple of weeks is beyond me. Went from finding this character horrifying to loving him so much! Haha I may attempt to draw him but I don't know if I can pull that hair off. Not my forte to do that kind of hair but I may attempt it just because it's Hisoka. I think he may be my most favorite character ever. I don't know what so alluring about him but he trumps everyone in my book. (Never thought I'd have a #1. Never could choose my favorite person before him) currently watching the 1999 anime. And once I finish it I'll watch the newer one. Haven't been this obsessed with a character in forever. I'm all about Hisoka right now, been reading fanfiction of him. Didn't realize there would be so much of it. Gotta go and read some more of my baby 
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Go enter this raffle
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Just started following Tsukihii and in love with the drawings.
The link is here to the journal to join
fav.me/da16cnp
The link is here to the journal to join
fav.me/da16cnp
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Update on life
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So much has happened in the past year. I got married August 7, 2015 to my love. And we welcomed into this world my baby boy Charles on January 21, 2016. He is just the cutest thing >w< I have him laying on me right now. Such a cutie when he sleeps
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Paucchi is having a raffle :)
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I have just recently started watching 
and am so happy that she has gotten 500 watchers 
she is holding a raffle and in hopes that maybe this will promote her more and maybe have more people appreciate her work I'm showing her raffle.
paucchi.deviantart.com/journal…
and am so happy that she has gotten 500 watchers she is holding a raffle and in hopes that maybe this will promote her more and maybe have more people appreciate her work I'm showing her raffle. paucchi.deviantart.com/journal…
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